AI, Identity, and the Bridge That Doesn’t Exist

I asked an AI to show me what ijmphotography.net looks like, and it gave me back a Parisian bridge that doesn’t exist in Nantes. But it got everything else right: the cat, the tea, the film camera, the books that shaped how I see. It nailed the feeling while getting the geography wrong. Which made me think about what it means to ask a machine to reflect who you are, and what gets lost in the translation.

What I Asked For

AI-generated portrait of bearded man wearing glasses and straw hat, Nantes France photographer
The person asking an AI to explain who they are. I always thought I had a better skin that this illustration lets on…

I gave it nothing. Just the domain name: ijmphotography.net. Except that wasn’t quite nothing. A domain name is a vector pointing to years of published work: hundreds of thousands of words, dozens of photographs, camera reviews, personal essays. The AI didn’t guess in a vacuum. It had access to the entire body of work I’d chosen to make public. My voice. My obsessions. The point is: I didn’t hand it components to arrange, but I did hand it a very specific signal.

What came back included everything I actually care about: the cat, the tea, the film camera, the books (Cartier-Bresson, Freeman, the entire visual canon), the light, the sense of someone who thinks carefully about seeing. All of it inferred from that signal.

What It Actually Made

It understood the assignment. The cat was there, alert in a way that suggested agency. The tea was steaming. The camera was right; not some generic film camera but rendered with the kind of specificity that suggested it had looked at actual rangefinder cameras. The books were there, their spines readable, the right titles. The light was cool and controlled, nothing warm or golden.

And then there was the bridge. A perfect Parisian arch over dark water, stone weathered by actual centuries. It was impossibly Parisian.

Nantes doesn’t have bridges like that. We have the Pont de la Madeleine, which is a lot of things: industrial, efficient, carrying traffic from the island to the mainland; but it isn’t that. It doesn’t have that romantic geometry. The AI had never seen Nantes. It had seen Paris. And when asked to imagine where a photographer lives, it defaulted to the thing it knew how to render as picture-perfect.

What Actually Happened

Here’s the thing that stopped me: the prompt was just “I would like you to create a pen drawing that represents ijmphotography.net.” That’s it. No details. No aesthetic direction.

And it came back with everything: the coherent visual identity of someone who thinks in photographs. All of that was inference. The AI had to synthesize an entire person from a signal.

That’s what’s remarkable about where we are with these systems now. I didn’t hand it components to arrange. I gave it a category—a domain, a name—and it generated a complete aesthetic representation. It looked at ijmphotography.net and thought: This must be someone who thinks deeply about seeing. Someone shaped by a particular visual tradition. Someone who probably drinks tea and owns a film camera and has read the books that matter.

It got that right. Unsettlingly right.

Then it added the Parisian bridge. And that’s where the inference becomes visible. The AI had to place this person somewhere, and the logic it applied was: Serious photographer. European visual tradition. Thinks about light and geometry. That’s Paris. It didn’t know Nantes. It didn’t have the data that the person actually is Nantes, that the grey light and industrial past and the edges that don’t fit the romance are the point. So it filled the gap with the most statistically likely answer.

The bridge isn’t a mistake. It’s the moment where you can see how the inference works. The AI understood enough to synthesize an accurate aesthetic, but not enough to know that the specificity—the actual geography, the actual city—was part of what makes that aesthetic mean something. It knew what you looked at. It didn’t know where you looked from.

What Gets Lost in Translation

The weird part is how much the mistake tells me about myself. Because I would never have put Nantes in that image on my own. I would have defaulted to Paris too, probably. There’s something embarrassing about that gap: what I actually am (someone who photographs in Nantes, shaped by this specific grey city) versus what the visual language of my influences suggests I should be (someone drawn to the romance of European capitals).

The AI was doing what all of us do: trying to shorthand who we are by reaching for references that other people already understand. It works, most of the time. But it costs something. The specificity of Nantes: the industrial past, the way the light sits differently here, the edges of it that don’t fit romantic narratives; that becomes invisible. The machine sees the category you belong to and fills in with category defaults.

The Bridge and the Rest

I’ll probably use the image anyway. Not because it’s perfect, but because the flaw is more interesting than perfection would have been. The bridge that doesn’t exist is, in a weird way, more honest than an image of an actual Nantes bridge would have been. It shows the gap between how the world sees you and who you actually are: between what your influences suggest you should look like and what you actually look like.

And maybe that’s the point of asking an AI to show you yourself in the first place. Not to get an accurate portrait, but to see the particular ways you don’t add up. To notice where the machine defaults to assumption because it doesn’t have the specific data. To see yourself through the gap.

Everything essential remained. It’s just rendered in front of a bridge from another city, and somehow that’s more true than geography would have been.

The Uncanny Part

But here’s what I can’t shake: the AI inferred all of this from a signal. Well enough that I recognized myself in something made by a machine that has never seen me, never thought about photography, never sat with tea and a camera trying to understand how to see.

It got the shape of who I am right. It just can’t understand what that shape means. It saw the pattern and filled in the category defaults. And because the pattern was sophisticated enough, and the defaults were sophisticated enough, it worked. It looked like understanding.

That’s what’s uncanny. Not that the AI got it wrong. That it got it right by accident. That it can synthesize an identity without any capacity to comprehend identity.

The machine understands enough to be useful and unsettling in equal measure. It reads you well enough that you believe it knows you. Then you realize it doesn’t know anything at all. It just knows how to look like it knows.

It knew what I looked at.

It just didn’t know where I was looking from.

Photography Philosophy – Part V – Identity and Self-Expression

A photo doesn’t just show you what’s in front of the camera. It shows you something about whoever’s holding it too. What you point it at, what you wait around for, how you frame the thing, all of that gives you away eventually, whether you meant it to or not.

The selfie question

Take the selfie, probably the most modern version of self-expression going. For some people it’s genuine. For a lot of people it’s a carefully staged little performance for Instagram, hashtag lifestyle, hashtag ootd, hashtag me-myself-and-I. I’m not knocking it exactly, but it does make you wonder how much of it is really self-expression and how much is just performance.

That’s not really what I mean when I talk about photography reflecting who you are, though. Photography’s the one art form where you get to look through the exact same hole I looked through when I pressed the shutter. You’re seeing what I saw, in that instant, and depending on how I’ve edited it afterwards you might catch a bit of whatever was going on in my head at the time too.

Picture two people either side of a coin held up between them. One’s looking at the head, the other’s looking at the tail. Neither of them is wrong, they’re just seeing half the thing. A photograph works a bit like that. What you take from it depends on where you’re standing, and more than that, on everything you’re carrying with you before you even looked at it.

What a photo says about me, whether I like it or not

There’s a shot I took at one of the anti-government demonstrations in Nantes a while back. Someone looking at that could reasonably assume I’ve got strong feelings about French politics. Truth is I was about as neutral as it’s possible to be, I was there for the photograph, not the cause. But the viewer fills that gap in with their own assumptions, and there’s not much I can do about that once the shutter’s gone. I do the same thing looking at other people’s work, so I can hardly complain.

Then there’s the question of why I press the shutter at that exact split second and not a second before or after. Cartier-Bresson had a whole theory about the decisive moment. Mine’s less elegant: I try to clear the frame of anything distracting, get my subject exactly where I want them, or just wait until they walk into the right spot. Means I miss plenty of shots. That’s fine, it’s part of the deal. Has it turned me into some miserable perfectionist? No, thankfully. Do I still push for that extra bit of effort anyway? Yes. Not for me particularly, more for whoever ends up looking at the photo afterwards. Call it professional pride if you like. If you’re going to bother doing something at all, you might as well try and do it properly.

Have I actually changed, though?

I’m honestly not sure my subject matter’s moved on as much as I have. Am I still taking roughly the same photos I always did? Probably, yeah. But I’ve picked up plenty along the way, mostly off YouTube if I’m honest. Forty-odd years since I started, and I’m still learning new things every year, more in the last ten than most of the decades before that. I know more about film now, how to shoot it and develop it properly, and I’ve got a lot better at editing. Worth mentioning I trained in desktop publishing back in 2003, of all things. Twenty-odd years ago, Photoshop, Illustrator, QuarkXpress, the works. Feels like a different life.

New gear and different lenses got me properly into wide angle for a while, enough to get it out of my system, or so I thought at the time. I’ll probably go back to it again at some point, knowing me. Either way it changed how I look at a scene, and I know how to use the distortion now instead of fighting it. It gives a photo a different kind of impact, something a bit more unusual than the standard view, and it’s occasionally the thing that makes a client notice a shot.

Confidence has come the boring way, just from doing it over and over. Getting out with the camera is still the only trick that actually works. Some people might say I lean too much on gear. Maybe. But I’ve put the hours in too, and at some point that earns you a bit of trust in your own eye.

Do I take the same photos now as I did in 1987? In some ways, yes, because whatever’s essentially me still comes through in the picture. Back then I was purely obsessed with nailing the exposure, and I didn’t have a fraction of the technique or the visual references I’ve got now. I was also fifteen. I’m over fifty now. The core of it hasn’t moved much. Everything around it has, same as it would for anyone after thirty-odd years.

Thirty years in France

Something people might not know: I’ve lived in France longer than I lived in the UK. Has that got into my photography somewhere? Maybe. Probably, actually.

France gave the world Cartier-Bresson and Doisneau, and their street work still gets me every time, that deceptive simplicity that looks effortless and clearly wasn’t. I’d be lying if I said that hasn’t rubbed off on me. It’s there in how I look at Nantes, walking around with a camera, feeling like they’re somewhere just behind my shoulder. Subject matter shifts country to country too. The UK and France don’t hand you the same photos at all.

Doesn’t stop there either. I’ve picked up just as much from photographers online. Sean Tucker, Thomas Heaton, James Popsys, Mango Street, Peter McKinnon, and Jamie Windsor, that lot have all left a mark one way or another. Not a single Frenchman on that list, which says more about me than about French YouTubers. I speak French all day at work and everywhere outside my front door. By the time I’m home I want my own language back. That’s a me thing, not a them thing.

So does the camera show who I am? Some of it, probably more than I control. My photos say something about how careful I am, or I’m not, about being fair to what’s in front of me, about which places pull at me, Nantes streets, French light, and about which photographers I’ve let get under my skin. I don’t think that adds up to some tidy answer about identity. It’s more that every roll I shoot is a little bit of evidence, and I’m not always the one who gets to read it. Maybe that’s the interesting part. I’ll let you decide what mine says about me.


Also in this series: Part I — An Introduction  ·  Part II — Why Do We Photograph?  ·  Part III — The Emotions of Photography  ·  Part IV — The Art of Storytelling  ·  Part V — Identity & Self-Expression  ·  Part VI — Connection Through Photography  ·  Part VII — The Philosophy of Impermanence  ·  Conclusion