On the Way Home

There is a particular skill in noticing things on a drive and then actually stopping to do something about them. I have this skill approximately twice a year, if conditions are right and there is a camera on the passenger seat.

My daughter needed dropping off. Her friend too. They were going to watch someone play something somewhere in the north of the Vendée: I did not ask many questions, which is apparently the correct posture at this stage of parenting. I dropped them off, pointed the car back towards home, and drove past the same fields I had been quietly registering for weeks.

I had first noticed them whilst out with my son: flat, wide, open, the kind of agricultural landscape you pass through on the way to somewhere else. The north of the Vendée is not the Vendée most people expect. There are no bocage hedgerows here, no hills doing anything dramatic. It is cereal crops and telegraph poles and sky, and in the right light it holds very still, as if it knows something you don’t.

Each time I had driven through it I had thought: I should stop here. Each time, I had not stopped.

This time the X-T2 was on the passenger seat with the Helios 44-2 on the front of it. The Helios is a Soviet-era 58mm lens with a reputation for doing interesting things with light that is not pointed directly at it: a slight warmth, a softness at the edges, a quality that sits somewhere between documentation and memory. It is not the lens you reach for when precision is the priority. It is the lens you reach for when you are not entirely sure what you want but you suspect something is there.

I pulled over. I was in the field for under half an hour.


The wheat was at that transitional point between green and gold: not yet fully dried through, some stalks still holding their earlier colour while others had already given up on it. The light was coming in low and flat from the west, doing what late evening light in June does when it decides to cooperate; which is to say, it was doing most of the work for me.

What I kept returning to were the telegraph poles. There is one in particular that appears in several of the frames: a single upright in an otherwise uninterrupted field, placed there at some point for entirely practical reasons by someone who was not thinking about photographs. You notice the geometry of it. The wires pulling away at angles. The fact that the land is so flat and the sky is so blank that the pole reads almost as a deliberate placement; a decision rather than an accident.

I spent some time at the field edges, where the cultivated gives way to the accidental. The daisies there were doing well. They grow in at the margins of the wheat, small and white and backlit, and they are the kind of foreground detail that would look arranged if you had arranged it. I shot some of them flat to the ground, the X-T2’s tilting screen earning its keep in a way that my knees were grateful for.

There is a young corn seedling in one of the frames: a single green plant in dry, pale earth, with a long row of its identical companions stretching away behind it into blur. I cannot give you a strong editorial reason for having taken that photograph. I took it anyway. Sometimes the thing that catches the eye simply catches the eye, and you either commit to it or you don’t.

The last frames were the closest: individual wheat ears, the small bristles of grain, the way the Helios renders the background when you are that close. There is a version of that shot that is technically not what I would call an achievement. There is another version where the light is doing something I did not entirely plan and the grain looks less like grain and more like the idea of it.

I prefer the second version, which is convenient because that is the one I came home with.


I was back before dark. My daughter was collected later, still pleasantly vague about the exact nature of what she had watched.

Half an hour in a field in the north of the Vendée. I should probably stop more often.

Canon and the Helios 44-2 58mm

The Sunday morning sun was shining, and I was in need of some fresh air after a fun-filled birthday celebration with friends. Armed with my trusty Canon 6D Mark II, I decided to push my photography boundaries by attaching the Helios 44-2 58mm f/2.0 lens to my camera.

Stepping into the realm of portrait lens territory with a 58mm focal length, I knew I was taking a bold move, especially for street photography in Nantes. The Helios 44-2 is a Russian lens from the Soviet era, boasting a sturdy M42 screw mount. To use it on my modern DSLR, I needed an adapter, and the manual focusing without focus peaking presented a challenge for my not-so-great eyes. Thankfully, I discovered the trick of using the flippy-outy screen and zooming in, which helped me achieve some surprisingly sharp images.

While the build quality of this lens might be described as slightly solid (as proven by a regrettable incident where it fell from my dining room table and chipped a tile), it can undoubtedly withstand everyday use.

However, let’s talk about the true highlight of the Helios 44-2—the bokeh it produces. If you’re a fan of creamy bokeh goodness with a touch of artistic swirl, this lens will not disappoint. As you browse through the photos taken with it, keep an eye out for the captivating bokeh effect that enhances the overall visual appeal of the images. For those with an affinity for bokeh, the Helios 44-2 delivers in spades.

In conclusion, pairing my Canon DSLR with the Helios 44-2 58mm lens was a delightful adventure. While it demanded some manual effort in terms of focusing, the resulting images made it all worthwhile. If you’re up for experimenting with a vintage lens, the Helios 44-2 might be just the ticket for adding a touch of nostalgia and artistic flair to your photography. Just remember to handle it with care, unlike my unfortunate dining table incident, and you’ll be rewarded with stunning bokeh and a unique photography experience. Happy shooting!

Clisson in colour, and close up…

As you might know from reading the rest of this blog, I love using my Canon 6D Mark II with vintage glass. This Helios M44-2 is a bokeh beast for my inner bokeh whore… I love depth of field and this lens allows me to really express myself. Not only do I get the bokeh but due to a design falut in this lens, you get a “swiry bokeh.”

When I saw photos with this swirly bokeh for the first time I was blown away. I wanted that so boadly and when I first got this lens onto my camera I loved it. I’ve been getting acquainted with this lens and am beginning to get find what I can do with it.

Of course it has limits, the major one being that I can’t focus to infinity but i’m ok with that. I can get around it by using zone focusing. I can be around 6 to 10 metres away from my subject and have a small aperture. Above that the mirror with smack into the lens and my camera with start throwing a wobbler! And we don’t want that , do we!

So this bokeh, what is it then?


In photography, bokeh is the aesthetic quality of the blur produced in the out-of-focus parts of an image produced by a lens. Bokeh has been defined as “the way the lens renders out-of-focus points of light”.

Wikipedia